My daughter is growing up and growing away - time was when we were attached at the hip and people said "cut the umbilical cord!!" but oh! I enjoyed being with her and having her with me. And that is all she wanted. She once went to a summer camp for 4 days - only 40 miles away - and she couldn't sleep at night and cried and cried for me, calling me and wanting me.
Now i cry for her........no.....I sob - and find myself wondering "where is my little girl?"
Last year after we moved, she had such a hard time finding friends and her place in her new world. I prayed every day....please help her be happy, find her space and her friends. She found them all, and more, in surplus.....and drifted ever so quickly and effortlessly away. She doesn't need us anymore - except for shelter and money and clothes and transportation and.......
but she doesn't need ME anymore. doesn't want me around
and oh how it hurts! literally and figuratively, like tearing my own flesh from me.
many tell me that she'll come back, that the closeness returns.
I prays she will.
the pain inside me remains....
it won't go away until she's back.
